That's what makes my life so fucking fantastic.

The Alarming Sound of a Still Small Voice

2009-09-24T19:59:00.005-06:00

This is a song that perfectly describes my life right now. I am always stuck in this situation, ha. This song is off of Saosin's new CD. It is amazing and you should deff check it out. They are coming to the Gothic on Saturday November 14th, and you know I am going to be there, no doubt!

Much Love,

Vivienne

I knew I never deserved you
I just felt so high in size
I move along, I shuffled in place then
Back hand and you're pulling me in
Will I ever find anyone
Who makes me feel like I've been lost somewhere
Now it's morning, it's over, now it's over

Am I right where I need to be
Or is this another distraction
Is this how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go
Is there a change you need to see
Or is this another disaster
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go

No this is never what I wanted
Never what I thought I'd signed up for
And I keep moving away
To the edge then I'll decide whether to jump or stay asleep
Sometimes the leap of faith is all we have
Why won't you tell me

Am I right where I need to be
Or is this another distraction
Is this how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go
Is there a change you need to see
Or is this another disaster
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go

Why won't you wake up
Wake up, nobody's sleeping anymore
And I've had enough of the ground
Made my escape, fell in love with the sound
And I'll pound my fist till you wake up
So why aren't you waking up

And the sun is coming
And the sun is coming out
I can't hide here anymore, no
The sun is coming out

Am I right where I need to be
Or is this another distraction
Is this how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go
Is there a change you need to see
Or is this another disaster
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
I've been trying to let go

Why don't you wake up

Timebomb

2009-09-21T20:11:00.002-06:00

I AM BACK BIATCHES!!!

i know it has been such a long time since i have talked to all of your lovely faces. well i want to get serious about this blog. i love writing about stuff that well, i love! i love sharing stuff with everyone and i want you guys to always be in the know.

so since i have to keep you in the know, i have something for you to know. i have found a new awesome local denver band. they are called the rouge! i went to a concert on saturday night at the gothic, and they were playing. i had heard their name before, but never their music.

they are amazing. the lead singer, has a great voice. and they are amazing live. they have such great stage presence and they are very good looking (ladies... wink wink). they have an ep out on itunes, and it is terrific. i want them to make a cd because they don't have all of their songs on the ep. go check out their myspace here. please add them, and please tell me what you think. they are very different but they have a new sound. at least i think so.

anyways i am really serious about starting this blog back up again, and i would love to hear about what you think, and if you have anything i should talk about. so holla at ya girl!

much love,

vivienne

Pocket Full of Sunshine

2009-04-27T21:30:00.003-06:00

If you all read my Facebook status recently you can obviously see that I've had such a shitty Monday.

First, there was snow on the ground when I woke up. Um, mother nature it is almost May, there shouldn't be snow anywhere near here, well maybe in the mountains but still. Then as the day goes on I get the worst blisters ever from my stupid shoes. There were cute and all but I could barely walk by 4PM. Then I come home and realize that my most recent boyfriend/boy-toy/ex went to his prom with the one girl that I dreaded, his ex of like 3 years or some shit like that. I know I might appear as a crazy bitch but I still have/had feelings for this jackass and I didn't care who he took to prom as long as it wasn't that bitch. And so of course he took her. This also furthers my proof that he was messing around with her while we kinda had a fling, even though he kept telling me that he didn't hookup with her any more....FML!

Sooooo, my new rules for guys, please be honest with us, even if it will hurt more then a lie would. I'd personally rather know the truth then figure out that you were lying to me like a month later. If you cheat on us, tell us. I would want to know if my guy was fucking some other girl, so I know whether or not to dump his ass. BE HONEST! Trust me, you will probably have a better relationship if you are just honest.

Well Greek is almost on, so I'm going to leave it at that. Tell me what you think of this rule you guys... I curious to see if people agree.

Much Love,

Vivienne

I'm Back Bitch!

2009-04-21T21:02:00.002-06:00

Sorry for the hiatus there in blogs. I have had a couple crazzzzy weeks. Too many tests, too many commitments. But I am back!

Now that it is spring time we need to talk about booty shorts. I've seen sooo many girls wear some short ass shorts even though their legs are the size of hams. Girls. Honestly no one wants to see them. You have plenty of cute shorts out there that won't show your legs or hams. Like a girl said in RamTalk the other day your shorts should be no shorter then the width of your thighs. If you are worried about your legs then maybe you should think twice before you put on that pair of shorts.

I also don't want to see girls wearing Uggs with booty shorts. That stopped being hot a long ass time ago... Uggs are out even when jeans cover them. So being in shorts are not going to make them look any better. Plus girls, they make your legs look fatter. Sorry. But it is true. I know most guys would agree with me here.

So girls, please be smart when it comes to wearing shorts. Wear the appropriate length and you'll be just fine.

Much Love,
Vivienne

PS. Who is upset about stupid Miss California's answer to Perez Hilton's question at the pageant? I know I am!

I'm Not A Thief I Am A Treasure Hunter

2009-03-26T18:51:00.003-06:00

I found another band, thanks to Pandora. A Skylit Drive. They are not super hardcore but they do have the "screamo emo" feel. I know a lot of you don't like that kind of thing but this band is different. The main singer is a crazy ginger and tends to sing in a higher pitch, almost like a girl, but I still like it. They have some pretty good break downs and they are still not very well known yet, so that means awesome/cheap concerts.

My favorite song off their Wires... And the Concept of Breathing album is called "All It Takes for Your Dreams to Come True." They do have the album on iTunes if you are looking to buy it, (it is pretty good).

If you wanna check them out here is the link to their Myspace page. Let me know what you think!

Much Love,

Vivienne

Decode

2009-03-23T19:30:00.003-06:00

I have fallen for the stupid trend of becoming addicted to Twilight. (At least it's not Harry Pothead).

I know, some of you might be upset with my latest addiction but, I read all the books and then I have the movie now. I have to say if you are looking for a quick read, I do suggest these books. I got through all four of them in like two weeks and that includes a few tests and shit in there. The books are kind of girly but I still know many guys who have read the series and are pleased with it.

The movie of course was not as good as the book but who can resist Robert Pattinson?? I know I can't. I can't wait for the next movie to come out in November (such a long ways away). But I would recommend that you read the book first before you see the movie so you know all the good stuff that they have left out.

I'm curious about who else has fallen for this addicting series....????

Much Love,

Vivienne

Dirty Little Secret

2009-03-22T19:29:00.003-06:00

A lot of you might not have gotten the chance to vote on my last poll but I was just curious how many of you would get a tattoo.

I know that it seems that everyone has one, especially when I see so many every day. I know I want one... but the question is do I really want it? I mean it is on you for the rest of your life. Fat or skinny. Great skin or old wrinkly skin. It will never go away.

It drives me crazy when people just get a tattoo because they can. It is even more awesome when your tattoo has some great meaning behind it. I love to hear peoples stories about their tattoo and why they got it (that's why I love watching like Miami Ink or LA Ink).

Tattoos are a very creative and personal and that's why I love them. I am thinking about getting my first one this summer. Of course I have thought about it and it will have meaning behind it. It seems that most of the people I have talked to and the people that voted seem to have made the right choice.

Much Love,

Vivienne

You Spin My Head Right Round

2009-03-17T20:29:00.002-06:00

Everyone of course knows those lyrics from Flo Rida's new super hot single "Right Round." I know that it is starting to get overplayed on the radio, but every time I hear it I can't help turning it up and singing along.

He came out with another single off of his new album R.O.O.T.S. (coming out 3/31/09) last Tuesday, I believe, called "Shone" which was awesome as well. Then today I get on to iTunes and realize that he has another new single out called "Sugar" which once again is actually pretty good. I believe that this new CD of his is going to be kind-of a big deal. With three awesome singles off the same record, it better be.

Let me know what you think of these new songs, I'm curious to see if everyone else enjoys them as much as I do.

Much Love,

Vivienne

And The Winner Is......

2009-03-15T10:44:00.003-06:00

You all voted for what you think is the ugliest out of Uggs, Crocs, Acid Wash Jeans, and Ponchos.... and can you guess who the winner was?!

Crocs!

We all know that they are pretty bad. Especially when they are worn with a decent looking outfit. And have you seen the latest ones with fur on the inside? Gah. Some needs to get rid of them ASAP!

So if we are going to learn anything from this blog, I believe it is this; DO NOT WEAR CROCS (unless you are somewhere where no one can see you).

This fad has definitely gone past its due date and now its time to move on ladies and gentleman to the next comfy shoe.

Much Love,

Vivienne

Set Phasers to Stun

2009-03-12T12:07:00.002-06:00

I was reading Real Simple magazine last night and I came upon a great find for my fellow fashionistas!!!

There are these sites where designers will post some of their samples from their collections online usually at 80% off! They usually carry name brand designers and then some smaller but up and coming designers!

All you have to do is sign up (which is free) and then you have all the access to these great deals.

My top three where BillionDollarBabes, Rue La La, and HauteLook.

There is a waiting list I believe for Rue La La but I have you a little help getting past that waiting list, so all you have to do is click the link and sign up!

Tell me what you think of them!

Much Love,

Vivienne

Simple Kind of Life

2009-03-10T12:22:00.002-06:00

I was looking at the Urban Outfitters Spring 2009 catalog last night and I realized how much I love the guy clothes that they sell. (I mean not like I would buy them for me, but if I were a boy I would deff shop there).

I know most guys seem to think that Urban is for the typical emo boy. But if you are a boy who is actually trying to care about what you wear (which I know there are very few of you..) then you should know that Urban does not equal emo.

Urban has such a laid back atmosphere that is reflected in the merchandise they sell. I love how different their clothes are; you could never find most of their pieces at any other store. It is a pretty vintage look but yet it has the modern touch that is needed today so you don't like look a grandpa walking down the street.

If you are trying to update your look guys, try Urban. They got some pretty sweet shwag.

Much Love,

Vivienne

Break Ya Ankles

2009-03-07T04:41:00.002-07:00

Its 4:45 in the morning and I've had about 3 hours of sleep since being at a party. The only reason I am up is because I have to catch a ride to go ski at 5:30 am.

I am still a bit drunk.... Fucking tired and just exhausted. But I'm going skiing anyway.

Holy shit.

Much Love,

Vivienne

If You Seek Amy

2009-03-04T21:22:00.002-07:00

So I know that a lot of you disapprove of Britney. I actually like her latest CD and I am not ashamed to say that I do own it.

One of her most recent singles off the album Circus is "If You Seek Amy". Now I want you to think about this title and say it quickly out loud a few times.

I don't know if you have already realized this but it just came to my attention that what Britney is saying is "f-u-c-k me". HAHA! I think that is pretty awesome. I don't know if Britney came up with that all by herself but it is pretty clever. So when she says the main line of her chorus "All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy".

So the next time that you hear this song I want to really think about the meaning of it. Ha. I just thought this was an interesting little fact that everyone should know about.

Much Love,

Vivienne

Allegaeon

2009-03-03T11:19:00.003-07:00

I know a lot of you aren't fans of hardcore or metal kind of music. But I just found this band called Allegaeon who are from Fort Collins!!

They are more hardcore then most of your typical "emo" bands which I know most of you have heard of. They have more of metal feel to it then just like screamo. There are amazing break downs in some of their songs and it is awesome music to head bang to. My personal favorite track of theirs is "Cower Before Me".

They just came out with an EP for 2008 that has four songs on it. You can buy it on iTunes if you really are diggin them but if not here is their home page where you can listen to their music.

Please tell me what you think of them. I think that they have the potential to be big!

Much Love,

Vivienne

My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-02-26T10:38:00.002-07:00

Recently I have had some boy troubles. I believe I am handling them the right way, but of course the way that I want the whole situation to turn out is not happening.

I have had a thing with this boy for about 10 months now maybe even 11... I have no idea; it has just been a long ass time. It started out that I was going away to college and that I didn't want to have anything tying me down. But yet we still were pretty much in a relationship even though there was no title. Now that I got to college and after being with him and spending so much time with him over winter break I realize that I just want to be with him. (I know that I am in college and that there are plenty of other boys but for some reason I really like this one).

Now he doesn't want to be tied down and have a girlfriend (of course this would happen with my luck). But he still wants me around and I don't really know why. Like when I come home from school we are technically together but then as soon as I leave its like nothing ever happened. It's getting hard to keep doing this. I don't want to go back and forth. I want to be with him and thats it.

I feel like it is totally pointless to continue what we have now if we aren't even really going to be together. Why should I be wasting my time and energy on someone who doesn't want me until I come home to him??????

Of course this is what my mind is telling me but my heart thinks totally differently. I have this boy in my life for so long now I really don't want him to leave.

Mind vs. Heart is the dilemma. Help.

Much Love,

Vivienne

I Shot the Sheriff but I Didn't Shoot No Deputy

2009-02-23T19:28:00.002-07:00

So as I walk around campus I realize that I see quite a few people with dreadlocks. I know this is like a hippie kind of thing but I can understand why someone would get them. You wouldn't have to clean your hair really. You wouldn't have to worry about how your hair would look for that day. You really wouldn't have that much to worry about.

Of course they can be some what gross. Since you don't wash them you have the potential for some nasty ass hair (maybe with some bugs in it). They can smell after awhile I am guessing, and you really don't have too much variety when it comes to style, either up or down. Plus I think that it is pretty gross when someone who didn't quite have hair long enough to make dread locks tries to do it. Then you just have these short little nub like things coming out of your head... yuck.

But on some people, I find dreadlocks very attractive. They just go with that persons personality or they just look really really good on them, like Bob Marley. And when they put like cool little beads in them, I think that is pretty awesome.

So these are the nasty kind of dreads I was talking about (the nubs).

And of course Bob's are always legit.

Much Love,
Vivienne

Balls to the Wall

2009-02-21T17:04:00.007-07:00

So the last time that I was back home, I saw a movie with the family called The Wrestler.

I don't know if you have seen it yet but it was a very very good movie. I know that Mickey Rourke is nominated for an Oscar for his performance (which was amazing, I might add).

While I was watching the movie I realized that the songs that were being played were totally awesome. It was mainly 80's rock but it was definitely music I could use to get pumped up at the gym or to just rock out here in my room. So I bought the soundtrack on iTunes of course, and every since then I can't stop playing it. There are a few rap songs on there, one with Lil' Wayne, that were being played at the strip club throughout the movie. But they are good songs as well. So I encourage you to get your 80's rock on and "Bang Your Head"!!!

Much Love,

Vivienne

Now Everything is Cool as Long as I'm Getting Thinner.

2009-02-20T16:37:00.002-07:00

This is my first post. How awesome is this???

So lets get right into it. I plan on talking about fashion, music, and boys. If you don't like any of these then please don't read.

When it comes to fashion I will probably bitch about what I have seen or what I must have for this season or just because. I hope to post pictures of some uggggly things as well as the must haves.

Music. I flat out love music from classical to country. From jazz to hardcore. I hope to be posting links to new and awesome upcoming bands, or talk about concerts that I have been to. Please feel free to tell me about any bands that you think that I should check out.

Boys are always a constant problem in my life (aren't they always though?) I hope to not use names but rather we will come up with some secret awesome code names or something like that. Feel free to ask for advice on boys too. I tend to help a lot of my friends out when it comes to the issue of relationships.

I hope to post the first legit blog this weekend after having experienced a few things (hopefully nothing too terrible!!)

Much love,

Vivienne